Wednesday, May 07, 2014

Demoralized

Sometimes, people offer advices or solutions making things worse for us. Instead of being encouraged, I feel demoralized. What others achieved in 10min, I need to take 1h and might not even be on par. How not to feel depressed? 

Anyway, I know God makes all of us different. He is really testing my faith in everything since the day of Rachael's birth. Nothing seemed to go according to our plans. 

1) I planned to have a natural birth, but it ended in an emergency c-sect. 

2) I planned to fully breastfeed her, but I don't have enough to sustain her and need to top up with formula. 

Anymore? I think these two are enough to be faith busters. 

Guess I need to tell myself what Jesus said in the Garden of Gethsemane, "Nevertheless, not my will, but Yours be done." According to God's plan it shall be. I feel so tired.... 




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